The time of my life.

I've got some bone to pick with life. It doesn't make sense a lot of times but that is the very nature of it. Confused? I am. Have been for a long time too. Actually, I quit trying to make sense of it and making long range plans a while back because number 1, every time I do plan on something, it changes at the last minute and second, the last minute changes usually change too.

You might say, so what. Everyone has to change plans. OK. I agree but the thing of it is, it marks every part of my life.

Take vacations for example. (Was that a pun?) I haven't had one in over 2 years. Except for a couple long weekends, my life has been steady working, trying to maintain the status quo. I don't have the time to go anywhere. I want to go to Asheville in a couple weeks for a long weekend. We take the camper to a campground on the French Broad River and spend the weekend looking at the beauty that God has supply in abundance. Will this happen? Who knows. I believe we are going the minute we pull out of the driveway.

Own your own business! Set your own hours! Bullshit!!! Let me set the record straight. I love what I do, I'm pretty good at it and wouldn't want to do anything else. However, I am the first one there and the last one there. I get calls all the time. I am the last one to get paid if there is anything left AFTER everyone else is paid. Now there are some perks that others can't experience, like a long afternoon nap if I choose and need one. (doesn't happen often thought) A long lunch or the ability to tell someone, I just don't want to work for you.

A couple years ago, someone once told me in a conversation that I was an overnight success. I looked at this person with shock in my eyes and my mouth wide open and said; "Yeah, an overnight success that's taken 12 years to come about!"

It's not easy, but it's what it is. It's what I choose and a life I have come to accept. Complaining never makes life easier, just releases some steam and that's why I'm here.

I couldn't be an employee any longer. Been away from the world of order and time sheets for too long. I always felt constricted under the thumb of my bosses of the past. Egos are tender things and most of them had their own zip code. I try to keep mine in check but still, if you are in my position, you have to be confident in yourself. Otherwise you will be taken down when you least expect it.

Time to go to work now. Later.