The end.

Life has beaten the ever loving shit out of me and there is really nothing left in the tank to make me keep going. There are reasons to do so but not enough energy to make it happen.

I can't make a living anymore. Things are so tight that a simple mistake can cost you a months labor. A month that I can't spare right now. It's the life I choose and the life I know, but no longer a life I can live. Things have just gotten too bad. I think that is probably the final nail there.

All the regrets I have and all the missed opportunities pale in comparison to finding out way to late that that thing you have always dreamed of, the one thing that you were told existed, really does exist! But now, there isn't a damn thing you can do about it because you are too fucking old and worn out! You have no future because of bad choices. Realizing that the game is ending and you have been on a team that was playing for the competition! Yep, you have been all alone bubba! Out numbered, out maneuvered and out played.

I wont feel sad about my life, I will be happy that it was and now isn't. I learned too late to fend for myself. That you don't ask, you just go and take. That you don't owe anyone anything and if you give it, don't expect anything in return. I know this too well now. And too late.

Now it would be appropriate to go and give all the shout outs to the ones responsible for making me the failure that I am today. I wont. It's all me. I say that because I allowed it to happen. Yep, it's all me. So take a minute and remember a few things with me.

First, the 3 rules. Look back and you will find them, I don't feel like rehashing it now.

Second, true love does really exist, never settle, that path leads to the road I'm walking down. Learn to be patient, it truly will be worth waiting for and you will know it when you find it.

Third, fucking talk about it!!!! Unless you have some insight into the human mind that borders on exceptional, you don't know what anyone else is thinking or even doing. You can cobble together bits of information and draw whatever conclusion you want. But it doesn't make it true or accurate.

Fourth, if the decision doesn't feel right, then it probably isn't. Figure this one out yourselves. It's really pretty simple.

Unspoken words cannot help and they don't always hurt. Temper your words, but say what is on your mind. Expect resistance, a kite must fly against the wind!

Think beyond today. Fix the damn roof when the sun is shining! It makes life a little bit easier to live when the rain begins. And yes, rain IS going to fall. It always does.

That's about it then, hope it all works out good for you. Later.